God moves in a mysterious way


God moves in a mysterious way

His wonders to perform;

He plants His footsteps in the sea

And rides upon the storm


Deep in unfathomable mines

Of never failing skill

He treasures up His bright designs

And works His sovereign will.


Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;

The clouds ye so much dread

Are big with mercy and shall break

In blessings on your head.


Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,

But trust Him for His grace;

Behind a frowning providence

He hides a smiling face.


His purposes will ripen fast,

Unfolding every hour;

The bud may have a bitter taste,

But sweet will be the flower.


Blind unbelief is sure to err

And scan His work in vain;

God is His own interpreter,

And He will make it plain.

-William Cowper (1774)


photo-177Late tonight Steven called me outside after taking the recycling bin out to the curb. We had no idea it had been snowing so much. Snow blanketed everything and kept silently falling all around us. We stood in our driveway, in the light of the bright night snow as bright as any dawn or dusk and cried and told each other about fears we had, about boldly going to the Lord in pleading with Him to not take our daughter. We  thought back together on times before children and marriage…having no clue that a summer camp crush would turn into such a vehement connection of two people and their Creator, moving together through grace upon grace.

We marveled at the snow. Unmatched. The morning we received Willa’s diagnoses we woke to the most beautiful, powdery snow. It was unexpected. When we were given her due date of December 16th, I envisioned a day like that….everything blanketed in beautiful, perfect snow. Well, it didn’t snow on the day she was born, or really any day in December. But this night, with snow just like this when it sticks to every barren branch and floats down onto your hair, slight pit-pats as the flakes hit the ground, this will always remind me of Willa and the start of this adventure with her. She is our beautiful winter baby. Unmatched.

…and yeah that’s right, we’re kissing, in a photo, after midnight, in the snow. Steven’s dad used to tell him “nothing good happens after midnight.” Well, we beg to differ. And we won’t stop living joy even in the midst of some of the scariest, most challenging moments of our lives thus far.

6 thoughts on “God moves in a mysterious way

  1. Tiffany says:

    I don’t know you, but I am praying for you… I am so glad God is strengthening your marriage for the days ahead. I will continue to pray for your whole family, that God would just wrap you up, give you joy and perseverance through this trial. And I am sorry that you have to walk through it.
    Tiffany in Lebanon, TN


  2. KerryLyn says:

    Steven and Allison,

    I am in awe of the continuous strength I see in the both of you as individuals and as a couple. I know how heartbroken you must be at the news of baby Willa, but I rejoice that the Lord has given you each a strong companion to walk alongside in this time. You, Willa, Finn, and Johnnie are are all in my thoughts and my prayers.



  3. Lori Nelson says:

    I’ve always known you were an amazing woman. I hate this trial for you and your family, but what wonders will be yours in the end. So much love and light coming your way. Prayers of protection and healing coming your way.


  4. Erin says:

    Hey Allison,
    It’s Erin, Dr Gill’s nurse. I read your blog this morning from a friend’s request for prayers and my heart sank as I realized it was you writing about Willa, the sweet Blackburn baby I haven’t gotten a chance to meet yet in the office.
    I will be praying for you as a mommy that you find strength and courage that only God can provide you, I pray for strength and healing for Willa and peace for your family during this journey.


  5. Elizabeth in SC says:

    Although I don’t know you either, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! I can’t imagine everything you are going through. You sound like a very strong person and they are lucky to have you as a mom!


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